Grass Root Mother

Don’t speak as though

They will not listen

So fast and unclear

You only come off as anxious

Speak slow and concise

They will hang on each word


The power of your tone

Will make them focus


I have three types of kids

I love them all equally and infinitely


The first one calls me everyday

Says thank you mother

For this beautiful day


The second one is a little more distance

Has some understanding of my existence


The third one is ever so distance

Thinks i’m annoying with my presence


By they all have one thing in common


My darlings

I see you cry

At night in those offices where you hide


Can’t you see your running away from the beauty

You were always meant to be


I know you are all grown up now

But i’m still waiting

I can’t be more clear


I still provide even with the distance


When your mouth is dry

I create water with my eyes


When you are so cold with nowhere to go

I burn parts of me

For you to keep warm

You see


Oh how it fulfills me


When you are lost

I create the wind to show you the way

I look to see where you're going

Everyday


I provide for you

Everything you need

But darlings

You all have gotten lost in greed


I’m confused about something

May I ask a question


Sisters and brothers bleed?


I made you all different

Different colours so you could

Learn from each other

And accept one another


I’m not perfect

I get frustrated too

I blow the snow so hard

So you can't see those unnatural roads you like to cling too


Not to make you crash

Or to do harm


But to make you go inside

Where it is still warm

Maybe you'll remember and what we used to be


Baby

I gave you everything

Why can’t you see

I even made a packed with the sun

When the fire can't come


The grass root mothers were the first of my children

I still love you, when you poisoned me

Intentionally


I still love, you when you

Cut off my green hair

Happily

Effortlessly

The trees were meant to flourish and be seen


I still love, you when you fill my lungs with dust

I even still love you, even, when it becomes to much


You’ve dug so many holes

But my heart is to deep

Filled with light and only love


That you can't get to my core

My life force


These grass root mothers

Feet naked against the roots of earth


Protecting the land even if their voices hurts

Standing up to men and women who don't see


That they are lost on their journey

Fighting to take and burn the trees and beasts


They were here first and all they have ever asked was to respect me


Brothers and sisters


Clouded by greed and money that funds their mouths


But their connection can't be any farther now

What are you gaining from this

What will you see


Just a land covered black

Covering all that history


This land isn't for you

To take and misuse


Only to look

Touch with only softness and grace

Telling this land that you do relate


Take your pipe and your smug smile too

No room for that not anymore


As the earth will fight against you


You cover our lands with brick and concrete

But don't understand that my darling you can never compete


The delicate flower still green

Will smash through all levels

With such life and glory

The concrete cracks

As it knows its place

To stay in the back

As the plants rule this land


You need the water to quench your thirst

But you poison it

Like it didn't come first

You need it's trees so you can sleep peacefully

Snuggled inside but didn't you realize

The trees can't hide

No choice when being ripped

From its roots unexpectedly


You need plants to feed your mouth

To many animals too


But to prevent spores

You cover them with

Chemicals and oh how it burns the grass floor

But the mother speaks through me

To tell you she forgives you


Maybe if I grow something beautifully

You will finally see

I am foreign but you recognize the taste

You won’t have any fear if you connect with me right here

Mom if your listening

These are my thoughts


Sitting

Waiting for something new

I feel its coming


Lesson of patients is ongoing

Put in a dark place

But a new knowing

Must observe the mind

And why it continues its lies

Most things that have a place

Are things I did not generate

Why are they in my brain

Why can’t I be set free


I know the difference

I think I know how it feels like

To be happy

And to free

So I still wait for the energy to move on

But I know deep down in the subscious

Something important is going on

Reaching for the comfort

In that sweet satisfaction


But in that push down

I’m pushing down that needed transaction


Its dark down here mom

And are you still there

I think i remember  that beautiful stare

The tears inside are yelling to come out

And I’m still trying to figure out

What this whole thing is about


It may rain and reflected my emotions

But mom ying and yang

Is it really required when you are going to heal those emotions

Finding out


Distance you feel from the ones you love

Distance from yourself is the cause


Moments of understanding

Blissful but so  demanding

The dark and light

Everything in between

The range so broad

Itll take time for the incorporating


Always learning that I am deserving

Didn’t learn from the beginning

Only learning midway through

This game of creating

Looked inside the mind

The corner so far behind


A thought there has multiplied

I try not to stare

But it’s wrapped around everything

Like wet wild hair

Long enough to reach every surface

Wet enough to get in those creases

Everyday i know  is important

I’m trying to connect

Say those new words

Like you mean it

On the floor begging for forgiveness

Mom

I am okay if things go deep, even past the ground
As I know trust and love will guide us back around


I didn’t mean to do those things

I am just trying relearn everything



mariah pelley-smith